Wowzers I have been a busy MOH. (Maid of Honor, lol). My time has been consumed by babysitting and wedding / shower planning. I must admit, though, I LOVE the busyness. I do love being on my toes and having a semi-routine. And Praise the LORD that semi-routine will soon turn into a real routine, I start my NEW NANNYING JOB on the 15th. That is such a blessing, I couldn't be more thankful. It's great pay and for a precious newborn girl. I cannot wait to get started. We had our 'practice run' last night while her parents were out to dinner and we had a great time, she even gave me some half smiles! :-)
Ok so I just had a very intense worship session in my bedroom with Jesus. My eyes are all bawled out, I'll say that much. But when I am surrounded by His presence, it's hard to do much else. I have to share about an intense revelation He gave me on Sunday during worship at church. We were singing the old hymn "On Christ the Solid Rock I Stand" and this song had never blown me away like this before. As we were singing the part " all other ground is sinking sand " I was asking God in that very moment what my "sinking sand" is. Before I could even ask the entire question, He answered me! So quick! "Your emotions." Ok, WHOA, God. I almost broke down right then and there - I DO NOT WANT TO BASE MY LIFE OFF MY EMOTIONS!! I was overwhelmed with the truth of this profound idea. He is showing me to base the way I love, the decision I make, the thoughts I think, the words I speak on the truth of who HE is. To live a life as a woman after His own heart, I can no longer base those things off the way I FEEL. I realize this is especially true being a woman, but I don't care about emotions. To be blunt, I don't want to care about the way I 'feel' when it is not based on truth. Yes, emotions are a good thing and if we were all emotionless (like men, jk) this world would be a very interesting place. But I think as a believer I (we) have control over such things, by the power of the Holy Spirit. He enables us to live through truth in a world that lives off lies or fleeting emotions.
This topic has been something that has gotten to me a lot lately. I am becoming quite passionate about it. This is kind of a silly way to end, but I don't even know where else to go with my thoughts. Plus I am tired. If you have any thoughts please, share them!!