Friday, October 31, 2008

My heart.

I'm sitting in the back of class.
We are learning about the book of Isaiah this week - epic.
I am sipping on some green tea and feeling good.
I cannot get the lyrics out of my head
of a song that my friend, Julia, wrote.

"Your hair white as snow,
purity consumes You,
Your feet like bronze,
step in stamps of victory

Your face like the sun
Shining in the light of your glory...

You are beauty."

Wishing I knew the rest of the lyrics because they are mind blowing.
My entire being longs to be consumed by purity.
That not an ounce of fear would rule my life.
But that in everything I do would be out of pure trust in my God.
He is mighty.
He is able.
He is trustworthy.

Lord, if everything was taken from me right now, I want to find my peace in You.
All things good come from You anyway, so why should I want anything BUT You?

You ARE beauty. Everything about you is good. There is no ounce of not good in You.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Lost in His gaze

My oh my, the Lord is so good. His faithfulness never ceases to amaze me. I love that His heart is FOR us not against us, and that when He tests us it's for our good not just to make us suffer. Our God is so good. I have felt his presence so strongly the last few days and it just makes me want more and more of Him. He has put such amazing people in my life for each circumstance I go through, to help and encourage me in my growth.

O Lord where to start?
I love You and want to be swept away by You; something you've already started to do.
My heart burns violently inside of me because of You and your beauty.
Thank you for making us in your image and that we are your most prized possessions.
Thank you that you desire no harm or condemnation for us, but only fullness of joy.
You are a joyful God.
You love love.
You love my happiness, and despise my pain.
You cry when I am broken.
Your beauty takes my breath away every time.
You restore my innocence to that of a little girl.
All else fades away when I am in Your presence.
You are the ultimate Daddy who has eyes of passion for His children.
You are jealous for me.
You are sheer perfection. You heal every hurt, you wipe away every tear, you love the unlovely.
Your desire is for me, not against me. You have no plans to ever hurt me.
I don't even know where to start, Lord!
Your gifts are wonderful, but your presence is unsearchable. There is none like you.
Thank you, dad.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

New season

Song of Songs 2:10b

"Flowers appear on the earth;
the season of singing has come, the cooing of doves is heard in our land.
The fig tree forms its early fruit...
Arise, come, my darling; my beautiful one, come with me.'"

More to come.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008


My dream place to be with Jesus.

Monday, October 6, 2008

It's a Beautiful Day!

I just woke up to birds singing,
a gentle breeze whisping into my room,
and a soft sunrise peering its way over the Kona mountainside.

Yep, it's going to be a beautiful day!

Saturday, October 4, 2008


Ahh it's a nice Saturday. Not necessarily exciting, but nice. I got to clean house today, tried to swim in our pool, but couldn't find the pool key, got Haishi's sushi, brought it home and drank it with some iced water and green tea. Feeling very fresh at the moment. And of course I'm listening to Rick Pino and that always helps. ;-)

I'm waiting for my sister and parents to sign onto ichat! It'll be so fun to see all their faces, I've only video chatted with Becca, not the parents yet. I'm getting butterflies. It's apparently 'family day' at Western Oregon, so they're all hanging out together in Monmouth. I can only imagine how beautiful that campus is in fall!

Well, I am starting to come to the realization that I'm actually coming HOME in two months! It's ridiculously bittersweet. SO good, yet SO sad. Love everyone at home, love everyone here, etc etc. But praise God anyway. God's been giving me amazing revelations of his love and desire for me. I love that He sings over my life! The phrase I've picked up from him lately is that He is a "hopeful romantic" for his people. Isn't that gorgeous?! Anyway, along with going home, I've been thinking lately about what type of job to get when I go back. I hope to have like a part time job and to be able to baby sit a lot as well. I'm thinking Starbucks (semi-reluctantly) or Curves as a receptionist! Random, I know, but I think I would love it! I guess I should pray that God would open up doors, and my mind to the perfect job for me.

Mmk, thats it for now, the fam is on!!