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I forgot to write about the fact that I taught the book of Philippians yesterday to our school!! It was so awesome, I think God totally just spoke through me to the student's hearts and mine as well. It was sweeeeeeet. Here's some pics of teacher Britney, my eager class (ignore John with his legs in the air in the back...) and one of the projects they worked on in class.

Comin home!

So I head out tomorrow afternoon for Salem! I am so excited... yet in shock that my little sister is graduation high school... trippy! I was just thinking about my schedule for when I go home and it's pretty crazy. Saturday will be the craziest / busiest day of my life! It'll be so awesome though. Here it is:
9-12 Set up for and attend Rachael's bridal shower
12-2 My nephew Griffin's b-day party at Mento Brown!!! YAY!!!
3:00 - ? Anna's baby shower
Later in the evening - celebrate my 21st with my two BFF's.

Pretty intense but I'm excited. Here's what's sad. My flight from Kona leaves at 3:38 and rather than having like an hour layover or something in Honolulu, I have a 6 HOUR LAYOVER there!!!!! What am I gonna do for six hours alone in Honolulu? So sad...
Then I land at PDX at 7:21 am Friday morning. Intense. Ok well that's all on my mind for now. Good evening!

My love life

So, I'm gonna be honest. This 9 month dating fast is one of the hardest things I've ever done. Not just because I can't go out on dates or have a relationship with guys... thats the easy part. It's all about keeping my heart in check with the One I have committed this time to. My friend Jeremy explained it recently to me that this season is like marriage to God, and that just as a married woman should not spend all her time thinking about other guys, neither should I! So the last few days, it's been all about realigning my heart with God's and learning to fall in love with Him and this season. It's about not even letting my mind wander for the desire of other men. WHOA huge revelation, but so good!
After I had that talk with Jeremy, I went to my room and read Song of Songs - this time as not a literal love story, but allowing Jesus to speak to me through that book. It completely blew me away and here's what stood out to me. This is where I want to be, (2:5) "Sustain me with raisins; refresh me with apples, for I am sick with love." Jesus, this is what I want! I want to be so in love with You that I am nearly sick, that I just cannot contain my passion! Take me to that place, lover of my soul!
He is definitely not boring, each day can be refreshing and full of new things if we choose to let Him work. He is colorful and vivid!!! I just love Him.

He loves me.

He is jealous for me
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree
bending beneath the weight of His waves and mercy
When all of a sudden
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
and how great Your affections are for me

O how He loves us so
O how He loves us,
How He loves us so

We are His portion, and He is our prize
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes
If grace is an ocean, we're all sinking
So heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss
And the heart turns violently inside my chest
I don't have time to maintain these regrets when I think about
The way...

He loves us, O how He loves us
O how he loves...
Yeah He loves us, O how He loves us
O how he loves us,
O how He loves


He is jealous for me. More than I am jealous of other people. He's jealous for my soul, all my love and affection and purity. He is saddened that I've given my heart away to fleeting things. He, in his pure love, is jealous for ME.

Birthday Photos!

The Mojito!


Apparently 21 candles makes a lot of smoke...




I had so much fun with my dear friends, Christina, Jenna, Kelly, Amber, Hyun Jung, and Tedi. They blessed my socks off. Thank you ladies for being so wonderful!!!!

THE dress

So I just bought this dress for my b-day tomorrow! I love it. I'll put pics up tomorrow with it ON. :o)

Blessings.

Burn victim

So I got schooled by the sun today... I walked to the beach (about 30 minutes each way) without sunblock on... bad choice. I had it on my face fortunately! It's startin to feel like fire...

Long time no blog.

It's been one of those last couple weeks that so much has happened that I haven't been able to decide what to write about. I've been really busy. The most exciting thing right now is that my 21st is on Tuesday!!!!! I am so excited. Me and a few close girlfriends are going down to Hard Rock Cafe for dinner and drinks. :o) I am so excited.

I've been thinking of the things A. I will buy with birthday money or B. that I will ask for as gifts. With my white Macbook I've come to the conclusion that I need a keyboard protector because its starting to get a little dirty. :-( Those are pretty cheap so I'm definitely getting one. Also I NEED to buy earrings. I was talking to Jenna last night about this, that I always chicken out on wearing anything bold but I want to start wearing cute accessories to make up my outfit. So I'm shopping online at buckle.com right now looking at earrings.

On another note, I am teaching Philippians next Tuesday the 27th!! I have finally started the process of beginning my power point presentation and once I got started, it really is becoming exciting to me. I cannot believe that two days after my teaching I'm coming home! I'm really looking forward to that, but I'm so weirded out with how fast time flies by. I'll be there for a week - til June 5. My baby sister is graduating on the 30th which is crazy. It'll be a fun time to hang out with friends etc though. Kesha - we need to get coffee!

So today I decided not to go to church. It's tricky being in YWAM to know if I should go to church or not. If it's for the fellowship - well I get that 24/7 here, if it's for worship, I get that at least 3 hours everyday in the prayer room here... so for me I think it's more refreshing to just rest on Sundays. Pretty soon I'll probably walk down to the beach to get some sun and exercise. That will be sweet.

Ok I'm not super sure what to write about now. Hopefully my next post will have pics from my bday party! Peace.

Happy birthday, Momma!

Today is my mom's 58th birthday. It was so cool talking to her on my way down to class this morning, and having one student sing "Happy Birthday" in chinese, three students sing it in Korean, and my friend Simon say Happy Birthday in Swedish! Plus the hand full of other people from all around the world that said hi to her this morning. :-)

My mom is so special to me. I really wish I was home right now to snuggle with her. She is a precious woman with lots of joy who is a living example to me of Christ's redeeming love. After all that she has been through in her years, all the heart break and hopelessness (which there is LOTS of) Jesus saved her. I don't think I tell her enough how much I appreciate her perseverance. She is a precious lady and Jesus has blessed me so much.

Thanks Mom for being you!!

"I'm glad you're my daughter"

Oh I am blessed. Although my family is not perfect by any means, I am so thankful for how wonderful my childhood was. Being in YWAM I have been exposed to a lot of people with huge hurts from their childhoods and a big thing is the relationship with their earthly fathers. I have never been so grateful for my dad until I came here and realized what a wonderful, God fearing, Jesus like man my dad is. In the words of my half brother, Kevin "I don't think there is a dishonest bone in Donn's body. He is so upright and would never hurt anyone." My dad has truly shown me and my siblings Jesus' unconditional love no matter how many times we have screwed up or wronged him. He is so wonderful.

Yesterday in class John - our school leader talked about the parable "The prodigal son" which he claims is the stupidest title for that parable. It should be something about the "forgiveness by the loving father." Or something along those lines. Then he turned it into an application time to pray for and forgive the earthly fathers that have hurt us - because that is not the type of Father God is. So many times people's views of God the Father is messed up by the example they had of their earthly fathers. I was definitely bawling during this teaching because I was taken back to my childhood, and the amazing love of my dad. I remembered a famous quote that he said to me at least once everyday, and still does quite often today. After he would get back from work he would find me or we'd be talking or whatever and he'd go "Britney Kaye," "yes dad?" "I'm glad you're my daughter" Seriously he said this so many times to reaffirm his unconditional love for me. Though at the time it became routine in my mind for him to say things like this, I'm realizing now that he has spared me so many wounds that others have. He of course didn't just say this to me, but also my younger sister, older sister and older brother. He is so loving. I am so blessed.

Thanks dad for being such a loving example of Christ in each of your children's lives. Your love means more than you may ever know. I LOVE YOU.

School Beach Day

Yesterday was fabulous. We had a beach day at probably my favorite beach on the island, Hapuna. It was a beautiful day with on and off clouds which made it actually really good. I am one of maybe 2 of our staff with campus licenses, which meant I got to drive a 15 passenger van full of students to and from the beach! Hahaha it was so much fun, I really liked it. I forgot my camera, so I took one photo on my phone that's.....

this one! Hopefully I'll put more up later on. It was beautiful and I loved it. Ok that's it for now, happy Sunday!

Healing.

Today I witnessed a healing. It was awesome. We had a campus wide day of fasting and praying with a focus of gazing upon the beauty of Jesus. The prayer / worship time lasted from 8am to about 2pm. It was intense!! But so good. We had a time of praying for people among us in need of healing. The lady in front of my raised her hand that she needed healing so I started to pray for her hard core. She started moving her foot and leg so I asked if it was a knee or ankle problem, but she told me it was a heel spur. My mom has one of those. So we prayed and prayed then suddenly she felt NO MORE PAIN!!!!!!!! God totally healed her foot. This was the first healing I have been a part of and it was so exciting. I can't wait to pray healing for those who don't yet know Jesus. It will be pretty rockin!!!

senior pic

K so I'm a dork, and I got the idea to post a senior pic from two of my friend's blog.. even though I'm not really a part of the joke. Haha it's still funny to look at.. here's me and Amy