No Sacrifice

I just downloaded a Jason Upton song that I've wanted the past few months, called "no sacrifice." It is amazing and pretty much brings me to tears every time! If you haven't heard it before you should look up the preview on itunes. It's my SBS's school verse put into a song - it's from Isaiah 55:8 on:

8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the LORD.

9 "As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts."

This passage has been hitting me a lot lately as I'm getting closer and closer to going back to Kona to staff. It's a very scary thing for me! God will stretch me and use me in so many ways that I am unfamiliar with and honestly uncomfortable with. When I'm confronted with the question "what are you gonna do after YWAM" or "what are you gonna do in real life" it's so hard for me to answer. I get asked that everyday I'm sure, and my answer is that I'm being an open vessel for the Lord to use me. I'm not going to make plans on my own without his hand in it. I am here to serve him with my life, not to do what I want with it. The thing is I would love to stay home in Salem and serve the church but it's not really up to me. For now he's revealing his plan to me one step at a time and I'm taking it as it comes. I cannot plan my own future because it's not mine, it's His. That is definitely scary and uncertain...but it's what my life is about. It's funny to me that that's even hard for so many Christians to understand. What? You don't have a plan?! As far as I am concerned God is in control, not me... therefore he has a plan. We'll see what that is by the end of my life I guess. For now I know His plan is to prepare me to go into the world and make disciples of many. I'm pretty sure that's what my whole future looks like, I'm just not sure of the specifics.

Ok I had to get that out... mostly to remind myself that although it's frustrating to me not having a full on plan or job or something, it's still about Him no matter how challenging that may be!


To you I give my life, not just the parts I want to
To you I sacrifice these dreams that I hold on to

Your thoughts are higher than mine
Your words are deeper than mine
Your love is stronger than mine
This is no sacrifice
Here's my life

To you I give the gifts
Your love has given me
How can I hoard the treasures that you've designed for free?

Because
Your thoughts are higher than mine
Your words are deeper than mine
Your love is staronger than mine
This is no sacrifice
Here's my life

To you I give my future
As long as it may last
To you I give my present
To you I give my past

Because
Your thoughts are higher than mine
Your words are deeper than mine
Your love is stronger than mine
Your thoughts are higher than mine
Your words are deeper than mine
Your love is stronger than mine
This is no sacrifice
Here's my life